You have no clue what happened again so I guess I must tell you.
I had another dream about that ex I told you I missed. The one I had a chance of falling for, who broke my heart when he rejected me after I rejected him.
I'm typing on my phone so I'm sorry if my grammar sucks.
It just... I dreamed of him again. For months I hadn't dreamed of him, hadn't woken up crying because I miss him so much. And last night... I dreamed of us together again, being dorky and awkward and fun, and I woke up very sad.
I still miss him. God dammit, I've got to do something about this. I can't handle having these feelings come back. The feelings of missing him so much it hurts, missing so much who we could have been.
Maybe I'll try being close to him again. I dunno, I have to try something to ease this pain I get when I think about him.
Maybe we can be friends again. Maybe we could be something more.
I don't know. I just am grasping at straws at the point.
Boys are dangerous, girls, don't get too close to them, because inevitably you'll break their heart or you'll break theirs and its none too pleasant.
I just miss him.
I hope your life is going better than mine right now, losing friends and wanting boys who don't want me.
I wish us all luck.
Love,
Grace
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