Day 38:.. But a few days later

I am so sorry for not being up on my blogging.

I just had an interesting week this week, between starting to fall for new boy and having the relationship between Mandy and I further deteriorate. Funnily enough, because I am getting closer to said boy and she feels like she is losing the competition that the last fringes of our relationship is.

So onto the competition thing, I must explain .As Mandy and I began our friendship, there was always this underlying tone of competition. Who could write better, who could be sadder, who had the worst history, who was the smartest, etc. So as we grew apart it grew only worse. She started chasing after boys I had feelings for, we started infringing on each other's activities, and here's the final straw.

This boy and our friend, Kenzie.

I know Kenzie wants to be both of our friends. But not only is Mandy making me feel like its a fight over her but also she's pushing her away by spending all their time texting being irrational and complaining about me. Yup, because Kenzie really wants to hear about that. When she wants to be both of our friends, she really wants to hear you bitch about how 'awful' I am.

Especially when Kenzie's more on my side about the boy thing.

Its just a mess.

Oh, and I'm going on a Valentine's Day Date with said boy and I'm excited and its going to be cute and ack I'm just super pumped.

I just am so excited. I love talking to him haha

Only two hours left to wait. I can do that, right?

Hopefully I can muster up enough patience. I am an impatient thing.

I just want to hang out with him so badly, especially because I become a much more relaxed, really myself person outside of school. I hope he likes me still. O_O

Anyway, its been a fun time. Wish me luck on my first date in AGES. Love you!

Hope you have a lovely Valentine's Day.

Love,

Grace