I don't know why, but I feel awful today.
The boy I like has ignored all my texts today. He hasn't texted me at all. That shouldn't twig me out so much, if we weren't used to texting every day and now this is freaking me out.
And I was sleepy all day and slept in about three classes. It was awful I felt so lazy and shit.
And we didn't have a snow day, though I wanted one.
And tomorrow i talk to Mandy, and I don't know how that will go. Part of me wants it done to see how it works, another would rather jump off a cliff that rehash that bullshit.
And honestly I just felt an overwhelming feeling of awfulness. It was terrible. Its not been my most shining days. And I'm an optimist for Christ-sake.
I'm just feeling shitty. I guess everyone has these days, but I just am not used to it. And if it wasn't so close to competition, I'd beg to miss dance, but its only a bit away and no one can afford to miss right now, really.
So ergo today sucks and I have to study for a test and get all this work done to study for it that I have no desire to get done and ahhh.
Might as well jump off the proverbial cliff now.
Between Mandy and the boy and schoolwork I am not happy. I am just sick of being a screw up. I just want things to go well.
Oh, Grace, do not cry. Do not start this now. You have class.
Ok, I think I'll be ok. I pray I'll be ok.
Its just a rough day when you already feel like shit and then nobody really acts like they care to notice you.
I hope tomorrow's better, for everyone.
Love,
Grace
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