So, the day has come when I have to talk about the most awkward of things with you.
Sex.
This has come up because of the new boy I might like. We've been heavily flirting and dancing around the subject of sex. Now, before you twig out, I will accept, yes, I'm eighteen. Yes, some people think that is too young for sex. Yes, I recognize the risks of such behavior.
But I'm a virgin right now so let's stop freaking out before I even act upon anything. Also, I am of age and it is my body and if I want to have sex I think I am of decent age to make decisions about it.
Anyway, its been a mess. Well, I might want to add that this is the boy my ex-friend, Mandy, also liked, and likely still does like. So this complicates matters.
But he's so funny, and cute, and makes me smile, and can be ever so sweet.
We've been sending each other funny valentines day cards, talking about our likes and dislikes, flirting... All that jazz.
I'm contemplating that if he asked me would I go on a date with him? Could this turn into something more? I don't know. And it excites and terrifies me.
And damn, am I attracted to him. That's another part that scares me. Do I want him for his personality or just because I'm attracted to him? Am I thinking with my head or my hormones?
Its a special kind of mess.
But I haven't felt butterflies like this in forever.
I'm beyond excited.
I'm beyond terrified.
I'm beyond infinity.
I'm just beyond right now.
Hope you're having an interesting day too.
Love,
Grace
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