Day 14: (possibly) Committing one of the deadly sins of friendship

I have done it. I don't know, maybe I haven't really. Its confusing.

Regardless, I may have committed one of the friendship deadly sins.

I'm flirting with a guy my friend might like.

I know this isn't a big deal in the long run of life, I know very well this kind of shit won't matter in the future. But its the truth.

Its confusing where I really stand in this, though, because I liked him first, a long while ago, then she practically jumped on him.  Which should really be her offense, because it was kind of rude for me to tell her I had a baby crush on him and then literally jump on him like a stripper to a pole.

And not only that, but she's hooked up with my first love (Granted long after I was done with him) and flirted with boys my other friend really cares about. Its just inconsiderate and rude and thoughtless. I really hate that about her, the way she has no restraint or even thought when it comes to guys, and seems to be more interested in them when her friends like them, like its suddenly some competition to her.

Its kind of sickening, honestly.

My best guy friend, Michael, is totally sick of her shit and calls her a witch now. I feel bad but at the same time kind of agree with him.

I've gotten to the point that I'm hoping mildly unfortunate things will happen to her just so she stops feeling so high and mighty like she's above all her friends. That's awful to do, and as her friend I feel guilty, but another part of me feels no guilt.

By the way, this is the friend I always complain about. Mandy. So for clarification, this is the one that pissed me off. The one that yelled at me. The one who did this, who did that, i am so bothered by her lately I cannot even make a list of what I have complained about her doing. Eeks.

But anyway I feel bad because she may like this guy, but at the same time, I liked him originally and I do like talking to him now, so what can I really do? If she's done the same thing to me, it can't really be a crime against her by now. Oh well, if she gets pissed off for me talking to him, screw her. I'm not taking her bullshit anymore.

Good talk, thanks, its nice to rant and get things out.

Have a lovely night, you.

Love,

Grace