So, ever get the impending feeling of doom when it comes to love? I do. I am fully aware I am young and have my life ahead of me, and no, I do not expect to find someone right now. But the feeling is that I will never find someone worth my time, worth giving up unadulterated solidarity for. I don't believe in true love and soul-mates, but I do believe in love and I'd like to feel it happily once in my lifetime.
I just hate this feeling of doom that no one will ever want to stay. Or that I won't let them.
I'm just scared of being so afraid of getting hurt that I end up alone in the end. And that terrifies me, being alone.
I guess I'm just generally terrified. Of everything.
Still the scared little four year old girl who just found out that the world is a dark place and no one ever stays.
I guess I'm a little messed up, a little broken, and even though I say i am, I'm not ok.
Guess I'm a mess.
Oh well, have a lovely day.
Love,
Grace
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