Day 25: Dance and scholars and other riff-raff.

I dance. That is a little known fact about me.

Why?

Because I barely talk about it. Because I enjoy it, but its not my passion ,so in some ways I feel like I'm always letting down the girls around me. Because its fun, and I'm ok at it, but I want to express myself in ways other than dance. Like writing.

One final year and I'll be done with the stress of dance. I'm so thankful.

Don't get me wrong, its been a fun run. I've done it since i was four, and I've always enjoyed the exercise. But the mandatory practices? The obligation to work very hard as to not disappoint your other classmates? That pressure is a lot to take when you don't even love something.

I love writing. I love science. I love the written language, and I love the history of things. Those, I'll do wonderful at. I'll love to be counted on in those subjects. But dancing?

Its too much pressure. I'm ecstatic to be almost done with it.

I've had a fun fourteen years, but dance has run its course for me. I'm only joining yoga or zumba club at the college when I go. Something I can miss without too much hassle, but still get decent exercise. Hell, I may just dance around my room and walk everywhere and that might be good enough.

On the flip side, I got sent a letter recommending me for a scholars program at the university I want to go to. That's majorly exciting. And I can join the scholars program as well as be in the environmental science program, so WHOOT!

I'm so excited for college, I'm just dying to leave. I feel bad, for I love my family and I love being with them, but I just feel ready to start the new part of my life. I'm just so ready for it.

I'm so ready to be a scientist and help the world.

I'm so ready to start study abroad programs.

I'm so ready to possibly move to Africa and help with the animals or the farming or water there, help make the lives of these people in Africa better.

I'm so ready to get published and be an author, talking about the issues of the world.

I'm so ready to maybe even write a novel about Africa once I get there and learn what its like.

I'm just so ready to begin my individual life and make a name for myself.

I'm just so ready.

Are you ready?

Love,

Grace