Thursday, January 9, 2014

Day 5: My life has turned into a break up songs without the break up

So I've made an astonishing, or not so astonishing, realization.

Let's go back to that friend I've talked about.

Whenever we fight, it basically turns into a relationship type fight, or a break up type fight, but never say the "I'm Sorry"s that seem customary for a fight. We just pretend it never happened, which I doubt is healthy.

What's even more unhealthy is that I doubt either of us are very sorry about what we said. Even though I honestly I feel she says more hurtful things when angry than I do. But oh well.

Now, onto brighter things.

Or not brighter things.

Honestly, I feel kind of depressed right now. I don't know why but I feel I want to cry and curl up in a little ball and forget the world. But I have dance tonight so I suppose I cannot do such a thing. 

Guess I'll listen to sad songs and read old, sad stories and hope I can vent out all my sadness. Its probably not a healthy way to deal with sadness but its how I do things.

My hair smells likes coffee, so i guess that's nice...

Who am I kidding? I've just hit a low in my moods. I cannot help it. I'm a mess. 

Here's to hoping I'll feel better tomorrow.

Cheers.

Love,

Grace

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