I'm growing up.
That's terrifying. That literally terrifies me.
I've been cleaning more, taking care of my room. I've been committing more to stories, and committing more to my own health and stability than my friends. Though I love my friends and hold them dear, I've become more self-reliant lately. And overall, I just feel a change in me.
I don't quite know what caused it.
I think it has been happening slowly over the past few months, and it just now hit me. Maybe this is why my friends and I have fought more, because I'm becoming a new me and they're staying the same.
Its just very, very... strange.
Its as if suddenly being eighteen has changed me. Its like that simple number has grown me into a new human being, a stronger one, but also a more afraid one. I'm terrified and confident all at once. Its very odd.
Well, I don't really know what to say but that this is quite a strange development. Part of me likes it, another part is terrified of it, and disgusted by it.
Guess we'll have to see where things go.
Cheers, you.
Love,
Grace
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