Day 25.5: My writing style

Ok, truth time.

On here I understand I'm mostly kind of joking and shit, but my main writing style is dark.

Well I've realized that terrifies people.

Make up a fake twitter as a fake alter ego to vent out my depressing, writing thoughts?

And your friends go ape-shit thinking you're depressed at all moments and that they need to walk on eggshells to deal with you, so don't do it. Ever. I swear to you, do NOT do it.

I ruined a friendship because of shit on my alter ego twitter.

And now I don't trust her and our relationship is non-existent.

So yeah, don't do it.

*And if you're late to the party, said friend, if you haven't guessed, is the infamous Mandy*

Its just...

I write darkly. I write darkly to counteract my happy. It keeps me grounded and pleasant and writing helps me think out the bad thoughts and get them out of my system.

Never make a twitter account to do this, and certainly don't add real life friends. Because they flip out and think you're going to lose it.

Even when most of the time you're perfectly fine and just reflecting on life a little bit.

I dunno, it was just a mess. And now Kenzie's upset with me about it and its just A GOSH DARN MESS.

That was accidental caps lock but it works well enough.

I just, it wasn't my shining moment. I was letting them into my world and they rejected it. They feared it. I guess that's what bothered me so much more. I trusted them with my thoughts and they rejected them and feared me for them.

I'm trying not to be mad at Kenzie too, but she's bringing up all my mistakes, running away, etc, and throwing them at my face like its supposed to make me see her point of view.

I get her point of view. I wrote sad things and I scared her.

But I always write sad things.

Blue, Sunshine Girl, and Finding Eve Montez make me want to cry just thinking about what happens in them sometimes.

Its just who I am. and I guess I'm sad that they find it so offensive, so bothersome, such a problem.

Well Mandy at least did. I'm currently confused about Kenzie.

I hope it works out between Kenzie and I. I really do love her and she isn't one to be an asshole about pushing my buttons and trying to get to me.

That's Mandy's thing.

Ouch sorry I'm still bitter.

Anyway, I hope things with friends are going well for you!

At least writing is lovely for me.

Love,

Grace